Well well well, look who's trying to crawl out of the big black pit of the lone wolf corner, eh? I've been in Japan for over a year and some odd months (I think like 6 months, who knows exactly, I don't feel like counting at 11 freaking 26 in the gd night). So like I've been trying to get caught up with some financial crunches and what not and on top of that situation, I've also lost my Canon EOS 30D. It was a rather crazy story and I'm usually always on top of things like that, but the situation was too dramatic for me to be aware of complex object. Your probably wondering the reason. Well I don't care to explain because I'd have to jump into a lot of hell just to get to it at about this time. I don't think anyone cares much to hear about it. But I think once I get out of that financial crunch and I rebuy (FUCK ME!) that exact same cam, because now it's so dog gone cheap than before, I'll try again! I still have pictures from the years, but I don't have a laptop/computer. I had to sell it =_=. Yeah, luckily I didn't have to lose that too, eh? Meh, luckily! It still hurts though to loose that plus some other things. All that I lost and I still feel rather down. Very down, all I can do is look at everyones art knowing I can do what photographers enjoy doing right now! I really wanted to buy a 300mm lens too. That 35 - 80mm lens was borring me. I guess I'll have to wait awhile for that. I hope I'll look back to this day and laugh my ass off, eh! Until then, write again soon ~

So whats weird is I said I'd never come back here. I've taken so many pictures around the world and I probably will continue to do that. Some of these picture coincidently look pretty cool actually. I used to think about displaying like a photo album or something. Then I thought that I never really took advantage of being a deviant artist, all I did was comment here and there and look at a lot of art. I did draw, but they litterally weren't eye candy. It was more like me saying "hey, look what I can drawy" and the response I probably would've heard was "yeah, they suck, don't put them online. Japanese 5 year old can draw cuter and better than that". Jee thanks! That rather boosted my confidence! So yeah I do suck, but I do enjoy drawing. A lot of my toon day dreams came from all that. I used to day dream about making series and all that jazz. Then I finally met some really polite and nice artist that could draw. They would tell me the only reason they could draw so good was because they put all there focus in it so much and so much practice that now he don't have to even focus. He literally drew a marvel (not anime) style character without really looking at it too much while he talked to me. I'm looking at this guy like, "Hey man, maybe you should look down more often or you'll mess up. Oh.... my.... god.... he's not messing up!". I think after awhile I got kinda jealous and I started thinkgin to myself "mess up! MESS UP!" and then I just slapped his hand. HE asked me "what did you do that for?" I told I was tired of watching draw so damn perfect. Unfortunately for me, when I slapped his hand, he unconciously drew a line curve the way he would wanted to for a guideline. You know like those invisible lines cartoonist use temporarily in the body or face. Anyway he laughed at me about that. It was rather ammusing.

Anyway, I got off topic. I'm back to upload some photos. Some are kinda personale and other are really neat. I really can't wait to show you what I've seen and the beauty that there is out there!

My old Journals are a joke!! I was getting high, drunk, and really stupid. HAHA, What in the world was wrong with me back then. Well, I guess I changed a lot. I suppose I'm a little bit the same. Not that damn bad though, haha! Wow, I wrote like a freaking crack head or a menttal patient with a brain cast. I wonder how badly damage I got my brain from all that stuff. Meh, I still smoke cigerettes and drink alcohol. Though I do want to quit smoking cigs, they ruin your longs, could give you cancer, they ruin your sex life, your physical appearance, makes working out much more difficult, also messes up a good working man or womans routine, but I don't give a rats about all that stuff. It's everything else. I'm not going to lie, I loved smoking cigs. They have altered my persona, however there isn't much more they can do for me anymore but hurt me now a days and in the future. You kinda do something and you do it for change, but then it's hard to stop it. I remember that with playing Ragnarok Online. It was so tough not to stop playing it. Same with going out every weekend and getting high, or skipping class ever damn day, messing with very serious employees that want things done like a robot. All that stuff and more. I would never take a damn mistake nor a thing I've done, I would just ask for forgiveness because sin is a curious thing to me, I must try it at least once. I'm not talking about the kinda sin where you kill someone or rob them. There is one sin I rather don't enjoy and that cheating, end of talk about that crap. Addiction, 100% hard to stop! I'm a pill person so I will quit the unwillful way. I have really bad willpower for sure. I'm like the most craziest procrastinator for the entire planet! Matter of face, I'm an expert at it! I get things done at the last second so much and so badly, I remember turning an essay to my teacher before she said "okay, times up, you can't turn it in anymore". I would literally just start the 500 word essage in class, and as soon as she would ask for homework, I'd be done. The trick was to re-check my homework fix it and rewrite it if need be. Usually I wouldn't finish the final copy or I wouldn't even start it. My teach, she would ask, "did you even do a final draft". HAHA, That is a final draft! I would say that and she would just give me the look on her face that would say "your a dirt bag student, stop comming to my class.". I barerly passed that english class. Thankfully, I'm a creative and I guess somewhat charming towards the teachers. That goes to show education isn't everything, it's persona, and attitude.

Speaking of that, I notice in some countries, education and professionalism is so emphasized that they have no time to develope themselves as a person. I hear people talk like they are still on the job or something and then they grow up like that only knowing that sort of talking style. I notice quite a few people were rather cautious of me for awhile. I realized it the second I got to Japan. I slowly changed that, because I like being around people too much. Apparently it worked out on my change, but people still say I'm extremely crazy to them. Go figured, my state buddies would tell me I settled down, they probably would think I just had kids or something, haha!

Anyway I like writing long journals because I don't write on a daily and when I loook back I laugh pretty hard at some of the things I do write. I do realized that I've change a lot. Especially my feelings. I'm starting to realise typical americans are pretty heartless. No wonder why a lot of people that come back from foreign places, they want to go back. You know what though, this basically goes back to my thing about some countries emphasizing education and professionalism. Some people just want to get away from that. I'm done for the most part. If anyone read this, have a postively wonderful day

(FAQ STICKY)
Thanks everyone for visiting and making comments. Even though it's not alot, I have a feeling this may happen. Better answer anticipated questions I won't feel like answering later on. I'm teh lazy hellzorz
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Question: You have something that changes your Desktop Background? SWEET! Where can I get it!!!?
Answer: It's called Panorama
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Question: What is that cool Calender thingy you have?
Answer: It's called Rainlendar
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Question: Are those programs free? I'm broke or too young to get it.
Answer: Fo sho they free! GET EM!!
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Thats about all for now. I want to thank (ssgoku) cause that is the man who helped me get Rainlendar and Winblinds that I will use soon for my desktop.
Please visit ssgoku. He's really good at creating unique desktops w/ unique menu layouts. They are pretty graphic intense, and he goes by a variety of different art.
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I'm jobless, and have been gaming my ass off. So I'm going to make like an artist and start posting random crap, haha!!! Cause it makes sense, I'm broke and I'm an artist

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WishList
*Wireless WiFi card w/ a 2 mile radius coverage antena
*Laptop w/a 256MB graphic card (custom made by yours truely)
*PSP +DarkStalker, Marvel vs Capcom 2 (yeah right. . .)
*Quake 4 Beta tester to be released
*Cool Birthday Present for me (March 30!) or a good Beer
pending more later . . . . . .

(FAQ STICKY)
Thanks everyone for visiting and making comments. Even though it's not alot, I have a feeling this may happen. Better answer anticipated questions I won't feel like answering later on. I'm teh lazy hellzorz
________________________________________ ______
Question: You have something that changes your Desktop Background? SWEET! Where can I get it!!!?
Answer: It's called Panorama
____________
Question: What is that cool Calender thingy you have?
Answer: It's called Rainlendar
_____________
Question: Are those programs free? I'm broke or too young to get it.
Answer: Fo sho they free! GET EM!!
________________________________________ ______

Thats about all for now. I want to thank (ssgoku) cause that is the man who helped me get Rainlendar and Winblinds that I will use soon for my desktop.
Please visit ssgoku. He's really good at creating unique desktops w/ unique menu layouts. They are pretty graphic intense, and he goes by a variety of different art.
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<center><h1>Whats been good guy?</h1></center>


OMG, soo much has happened since I haven't done anything!
1. Been play Diablo 2 with some buddies of mine!!
2. I got two 10,000 rpm raptor SATA HDs running on RAID 0
3. Left Job Corp
4. My job is closing down. I took a bunch of pictures of all my co-workers and all, cause I'll miss the good and bad times!
5. Been drinking waaaaaaaaay too much, and smoking waaaaay to much good herb. WAAAAAY too much druggin it up.
6. Been alot lazier, but thinking about arting it up more and more so I think I'll have to get my ass back into gear.
7. I got a second job, lost after my second day cause I cussed my boss out for being an ass to me on my second day. Thought he could jus sit there and push me around for 5.25 an hour. SEE YEAH FOO!
Everything has been sumed up pretty much.

<center><h1>My Bad d00ds</h1></center>

However I've been looking at alot of people work on Deviantart.com and newgrounds.com as well. I'm am a hardcore artist lover, learned lots from looking and reading. I still have a really messy attitude to work on, I got negative feedback from one of the artist for leaving a comment with cussing, I wanna apologize again publicly for that. I'll make sure to treate each artist with respect. I also wanna apologize for going on deviantart.com drunker than my memory serves me and leaving crazy comments that I would never leave sober, regardless if they were good or bad. Those comments jus aren't me! First off, I get WAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaay to friendly drunk, and waaaaaaaaaaaaaay to goofy scary and weird. Don't get me wrong, I don't care really. I jus wanna make sure everyone gets the respect they deserve. Only a few artist I would leave comments drunk cause I know they dont' care and they are okay with it. So then I don't have to care or worry, jus as long as I'm not stupid about it.

Anyway apologies go out to


I think that is everyone. If I left anyone else out, blah, my apology, I can't do everything right, I'm human and only make mistakes. Least I'm trying to be less of a dumbass and all. I hope I'm forgiven, for whatever I've cause. If I'm not forgiven, blah, life goes on, I'm not planning to lose sleep over it! Jus do your think, think about the happy part of life and things will be gravy.

<center><h1>Leave them be!</h1></center>
I jus wanna make this plenty clear. Not all drunks, druggies, or health problematic peoples are like me. I've meet some pretty decent people that do what I do but take it differently. Don't let those things think bad things about people, if you do, your no better than this god damn society news casting idiots. You know, like KARE 11 news. They don't give a god damn hoot about nothing, jus the cash. Then people amplify the media, or peoples gossip, how freakin horrible! Anyway, if my opinion counted for anything, stay away from crack heads. I work with one, and man, everything and everybody wants to committe hommicide on this guy. Crack does more than jus kills, but takes other people down with it. Worse than second hand cigs if you ask me. I'm sure there is more to say, but I'm tired of typing about it now.

<center><h1>rojects</h1></center>
I did say my restaurant I work at is closing right? I've worked there for 2 years. For my young ass, that is a long time. But that place has been there since 1938!! I may still be a youngin, but understand this, I've really grown attatch to those peoples I worked with. I took pictures of that place and my co-workers. After all the pictures I've taken and the deviant work I've seen, I thought of jus throwing those on there, few shots turn up really good for the lowest quality disposable camera. Gonna be awhile before I go digital.

Other than that, expect some few new ideas, it's for deviant reason and it's fun to view cool pictures too! Especially with a story behind the scenes.

<center><h1>WISHLIST!!</h1></center>
YES!! My city awhile back in the newspaper were talking about making all of the city wifi!! Anyone know what this means?! FREE WIRELESS ISP D00Dz!!! WOOOOOO!!! So thats actually on thing on my wish list that will eventually be a wish come true! Now for the PSP and the power notebook and I'm good! I should take off the beer wish, I don't know how much of that I got, haha!!

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WishList
*Wireless WiFi card w/ a 2 mile radius coverage antena
*Laptop w/a 256MB graphic card (custom made by yours truely)
*PSP +DarkStalker, Marvel vs Capcom 2 (yeah right. . .)
*Quake 4 Beta tester to be released
*Cool Birthday Present for me (March 30!) or a good Beer
pending more later . . . . . .
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(Sticky)
Canned until school is done!
no schedual set - description

(FAQ STICKY)
Thanks everyone for visiting and making comments. Even though it's not alot, I have a feeling this may happen. Better answer anticipated questions.
________________________________________ ______
Question: You have something that changes your Desktop Background? SWEET! Where can I get it!!!?
Answer: It's called Panorama
____________
Question: What is that cool Calender thingy you have?
Answer: It's called Rainlendar
_____________
Question: Are those programs free? I'm broke or too young to get it.
Answer: Fo sho they free! GET EM!!
________________________________________ ______

Thats about all for now. I want to thank (ssgoku) cause that is the man who helped me get Rainlendar and Winblinds that I will use soon for my desktop.
Please visit ssgoku. He's really good at creating unique desktops w/ unique menu layouts. They are pretty graphic intense, and he goes by a variety of different art.
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RANT!
About Crap!
LAPTOP TEMPORARLY OUT OF SERVICE!!
GOD DAMNIT MAN!! I'll never trust dll removal software. It was suppose to get rid of useless dll files that slowed my comp down, not important system files!! Know what that means, I've no laptop for a couple of days until I reformat the crack addicted harddrive. I hate doing that, it takes hours to do that, but might as well. I like a good clean install, winXP runs smooth again when I do that. Least the tweaks I put in earlier proved useful.
To this day I would love to know how some people do it. Balance work, school, hobbies, sleeping, and on top of that Job Corp(se). Cause I'm not capable these days. Gah! I guess I'll have to work on things slowly but surely, until then it'll take time on doing this. Haven't said much for awhile here, not since before spring break. As a matter of fact I didn't do a damn thing. I think it'll be like that until the last 5 weeks of school is done! My Birthday is comming up, made no plans of wtf to do about it, probably nothing. Same as last year, the only thing different is I decided to take a work day off, w00t! Better than nothing

Quake 4
I heard about Quake 4 a long time ago actually. I freaked when I heard that there were screenshots out, I finally decided to look. The graphics are crazy tight and the look of it so far is superb. I suggest 3D gamers/developers/fps fans to take a look at it! I've been a fan of the Quake series since Quake 2. Although I haven't played it through yet, I think I might put some time into it for fun to see what I've missed out on.

PSP hand held
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I saw this and said, "man! I'm so glad I didn't buy a Nintendo DS out of impulse! I like to buy on impulse alot, especially on hardware! Although I can't really buy anything until I get that damn 2.5k laptop I wanna get so bad that I'm a 1.5k from now. . .

DeviantArt Shutdown?!
wtf was that all about? Server shutdown for a whole day. That was worse than iRO shutting down from 10pm (CNT) - 10am jus to impliment Comodo way back when. That annoyed that crap outta me. Stuff like that makes you think they should warn you first before they decide to do crap like that. Thank god back then when I play iRO I had Half-Life/mods to keep my busy. Now a days I don't have that sorta time

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WishList
*Wireless WiFi card w/ a 2 mile radius coverage antena
*Laptop w/a 256MB graphic card (custom made by yours truely)
*PSP +DarkStalker, Marvel vs Capcom 2 (yeah right. . .)
*Quake 4 Beta tester to be released
*Cool Birthday Present for me (March 30!) or a good Beer
pending more later . . . . . .
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(Sticky)
Canned until school is done!
Sunday/Monday - 3D model post day
Wensday - GPO Screenshot postage day more than likely Staring your favorite Screenshot artist, Segito Misquitto!

I may post desktop,scraps,and many more at other times. .